aku, kau dan dia....

officially home..... never been happier..

goin back!!

today i'm goin home.... see you all there!!!

i feel so happy that he treats me nicely....

cinta dalam hati...

"mungkin ini memang takdir ku, menggagumi tanpa dicintai..."

the search, the walk...

i take a walk through my heart
trying to search for you
as i walk through my dreams
i passed all the old memories
all the rough roads that i've been through
all the dreams and love i left behind.

i try to search for you
for a minute i thought i saw you
i throw all that i have
ran to you just to know that you were not there

as i look up, i saw him
he brings me back to where i will be safe
i hold his hand tight
not to let got
but remembering all the dreams about you

will i ever see you again?
will it still be the same?
or will i lost you in my heart forever
like all the things that i had lost before...

i was a boring day......... i'm busy with classes but my head is somewhere else..

on anatomy class today, i was horrible and disgusting as it had been all this time. playing with real human bone and corpses. however today was the worse i guess.. me and my friend had to turn the corpse so that the musculus gluteus faces upwards and visible to all students. while i was turning it, i look at the face of the corpse. he was an old men. very old i would say. from the look of his teeth set, and the mass of the muscles he died of natural cause. old sickness... he look really sad.

the smell of the cadaver room is unbearable. its not somewhere i want to be or even think of going in all the time. organs and bodies are everywhere...

still, as a medical student, this is what i should do. my responsibility as the group leader and a medical student..

till then, its all gonna be over soon. goin back home... 2m months of rest will do great..

thank god holiday is coming.. if it was not because of of holiday i would have die here. the last week of class if super busy even though class and lecture has reduce. its all because of my damn "atravodka"... or replacement class... have to finish it before the semesters end.... then i'm goin home!!!

i just realise that i cant be strong for to long without anyone to love....

i cry for people who dont care about me
i break the hearts of people who loves me
i beg for love when its running dry
i throw love away when i have plenty of it.

i know that today's worse gonna turn into tomorrow's best
i know it was never too late for me to change

i love you so much but why dont you feel the same?
i love you but why do u feel so far away?

i cant love you anymore
i just cant do this anymore

know it, know you, then you'll know me...

what betty said...

"sometimes when you want something really bad,
we forget that there are other people involves.
we just get stuck in our own real world and
it doesn't matter what other people feel.
Accept that, it does matter.."

ugly betty...

goin home soon...

time passe so fast here in russia.. i cant believe that i'm going back to malaysia next week.. the excitement is unbearable...

i'm goin home soon... 15 more days to go... for the first itme in my life i say this, I MISS U MALAYSIA!