cinta ku, rindu ku....

Saat kerinduan mencipta duka, seribu kenangan kembali mengamit segala impian. Cinta, sayang, harapan dan cita- cita menjadi taruhan bagi sebuah masa depan yang masih kabur dan tidak pasti.

Setiap langkah pasti diiring suatu memori. Memori yang mengingatkan kita untuk terus kehadapan walau apa sekalipun yang menghalang.

Kerinduan ku padanya mengatasi segala keinginan ku. Pada waktu ini, sulit untuk ku nyatakan perasaan cintaku padanya yang semakin membara. Pada waktu ini juga timbul perasaan takut andai cinta ku padanya malap ditelan angin malam ku yang sentiasa sunyi, sepi tanpa teman

the way we were- barbra streisand

the lyrics reminds me of everything that ever happen in my life. the good and the bad, the happy and the sad.

Memories,
Like the corners of my mind
Misty water-colored memories
Of the way we were
Scattered pictures,
Of the smiles we left behind
Smiles we gave to one another
For the way we were
Can it be that it was all so simple then?
Or has time re-written every line?
If we had the chance to do it all again
Tell me, would we? could we?
Memries, may be beautiful and yet
Whats too painful to remember
We simply choose to forget
So its the laughter
We will remember
Whenever we remember...
The way we were...
The way we were...

the time when i should stop giving..... reality

at this point i realise that things in live happen without us knowing for a reason. to make us strong, and prepare us for future comings...
however, when you starts giving out advises, things may change here and there. you want things to be great for the person. to make him feels better. at the same time, believe it or not you giving the person a glimpse to reality. most of the time, the reality that you hope for was nice. but sometimes,its just bad, sad and painful. here is when acceptance is a total denial for everyone.
to make things even worse, after sometimes, you actually know the "reality" for this persons problem.. so, should you tell him/ her? peace everyone...

my baby...

i think think this is my first time i write about my baby. the person that i love.. i love this peerson for almost 3 years now. and i know that this person lovers me every second of this persons live.
i crave for attention but i know u are far away and just starting university.. sometimes i wonder if i could ever stand this lonely empty feelings any longer. yet i'm still here waiting for the day that we will meetup again. till then, i love u baby.. abang pray for you always..

when you are no longer you...

its really hard for me be back here at my place. i feel like i'm stuck in a time warp and could not escape it anymore. my energy is being suck out and yet i'm still trying to push myself further like i'm trying to keep myself a live in murky waters...

today was a boring and sad gloomy day for me. i try to keep myself as low as possible so that reality wont hit on me that hard. yet, someone said something that really hurts my feeling so much that m y head starts to spin and my heart skips a beat. now i'm still trying to put myself together. trying not to hate this person. soon enough i'll be leaving this place. and i home my next visit here would be short..

i'm sorry M. I'm sorry baby and I'm sorry everyone..

P.S hoping for a good night sleep.

a wish of goodluck..

i just wanna say goodluck to my navy brother for his pilot interview tomorrow.. all the best abang.. God bless you..

a serial novel

its been so long since i wanna start writting a story in form of a novel.. mayb i will start here.. cross your fingers everyone..